A painful goodbye

“Oftentimes I say goodbye to the person I love(one side) without a propose. Though that means that I’ve stopped loving or I’ve stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is painful."
'Be single & simple is a great thing may be...'  
               -- This was my status update on facebook when I decided to stop my love & care on her from my side. I did it for her good future. My mother saw her pics & said, "hey so beautiful girl, don't spoil her future with your wish." She said it because the difference between two casts system. If she would accept my wish, she might lost her relation with her family. So me too don't want to hurt her.
                            I wish to write about her, but not at this time. She is such a good girl & like a goddess from heaven. I will come with a story later. So bye for now.

My Jack & Rose ( Love & Life )

          For the time being, I couldn't get a format to express my mysterious stories. Because that mysteries are of two; which is my own category & the next I got from others(other's experiences).
          Here I wish to write a love story which had a 3 years strong base. Two days before I have seen a photograph on FaceBook of one of the character in this story. That is my inspiration behind this blog.
          In my college days I wasn't a studious boy. I was studied only on university exam times not in series exams(internal exam). The most of the boys are also the same. When I was attending 1st series test of my 3rd semester, the exam hall was occupied with 1st & 2nd year students. As we were seniors(2nd year students) we ruled the hall. I think it was our "Digital Electronics" paper's exam. All the boys of my batch didn't have the idea of that paper. As the same before, all Malayali students were started gaming & sleeping after the first 5 minutes.
           At that time my close friend Jack(not his right name) was sitting on the first bench & I was on the last. He has twisted his head & started to kidding me. What i have too do? I also stated kidding & throwing small papers at him. After some time he stopped it unexpectedly & his face was seems to be surprised. I didn't know what happened to that "bloody rascal".
          After 3 hours we all went out of the exam hall. I asked him, "why did you suddenly stop your mischief & looked to be surprised?". He told, "da, that girl was sitting in front of you is cute na?". I didn't notice her before. So I just re entered the exam hall & watched her. I also got shocked. Because she was also damn cute like my dear Jack. So I want to name her as Rose(not her right name).
         The next 5 days of exam he watched her thoroughly, & me noticed the both. At the last day of examination we decided to speak with her. We were blocked her in the exam hall with the head weight of seniors & asked her details. She was feared & told us about her like a confession. After her confession, my Jack's heart felt sad to saw her feared face. He had suddenly opened his heart to her. Unfortunately she got angry & left the place quickly.
        It was a month of July in 2006. From the next day onward we were went to saw her. Every time she got angry & ran away from our sight. But these things could't put back my Jack's mind. Every time he told me that he wants her.
        Whenever he was went to met her, I was also with him. So she was also has anger on me too. At that time our colleges & seniors was started to made joke on him. But I gave him a full support by words & followed him when he was going to met her. Because I had a strong believe that this would be a successful story & I could show others a wonderful pair. Rose was a studious girl, but my Jack was backward. That was his minus point. Character-wise he is a nice guy.
        The days were moving, she didn't accept him. So usually we were going to met her, but there was no talks. I always pushed him to talk something to her.  One day I brought him in front of her class. She saw this & asked me, "You don't have any shy to bring him in front of me daily?" But her words couldn't have the ability to put me down. She entered to her classroom and sat on her bench. We were standing out of her class. I told him to call her & spoke something. He move forward & called her, she came again. Suddenly he said, "I have a doubt, but now it is cleared". She asked, "What?". He continued, "That was; if I called you to my life later, will you come or not?. No problem. I got the answer now. See you." He moved back to class & I was with him.
        I can't explain the expressions which I have seen on her face on that situation. When we returned the class I asked, "Where did you get this much courage?". He told, "I don't know brother, may by God's grace." After this incident for the next 2 days we didn't go to met her. At the second day we got an information from girls's side that Rose has a lot of changes. This information had very much pleased my Jack.
        These were happened after a year later. So it came to the first week of August in 2007. On 7th August our department decided a tour to Delhi. On 6th we went to her classroom. But teacher was lecturing. We were waited for her upto evening. She came to us after her class. My Jack was on the top of happiness. I could hear his heartbeat & I could read his mind too. I wished him & left them to give a private atmosphere. I went to college ground for some crazy gangster works. From there I could see both were going towards girl's hostel side. But boys can't enter inside !! I was so happy to see this.
        The next day morning only I met Jack. He was so happy & hugged me. He said a hundred thanks to me. But I said it happened only by God's grace. They started phone calling & travel during vacation from college to home & returned. I was also became happy to saw them. Rose also said thanks to me. They gave me a small treat in college canteen.
         The days were moved. We finished our college. But my Jack couldn't finish, because he had back-papers. So their love continued as like earlier.The other college love stories were ended. At that time we all were using Orkut. I got the information from him through Orkut. Once I asked him, "you should invite me for your wedding. Both agreed it with so much happiness. After I lost contact from these two. I was engaged in my activities.
         After all were rushed to FaceBook instead of using Orkut. About a year before I was informed that Rose got married. I was surprised, because I didn't get any invitation from the both. I asked to that 'informer',why Jack didn't invite us. He said, "she got married with another person". I was shocked when heard this.
        I collected Jack's contacts & asked him about this. He said, "brother, that is LIFE". He said the problem was with his family. They didn't accept it. For the sake of his family, he avoid his LOVE. After I didn't ask him anything & cut the chat.
        I wrote above, about the inspiration of this blog. It was a photograph of Rose with her husband & their new born baby. At that time my Jack's word came into my mind. "That is LIFE".
     

          

Caught from ground & returned to life.

       Unlike other kids, he didn't has the freedom in his childhood. He couldn't go outside & played with other children. Because his parents loved their only one child too much. It was continued up to the early days of his 7th standard. In the last days of his 6th standard a new neighbour came to his place. Their children were also in his same age. That was his first frienship to play outside. While played with them he knew about the outside world.

       After his upper primary level, he went to another school for his high school education. That days was the big turning point in his life, especially in his character. His character has fully changed. He was started to say lie. He was also started to cut the school & tuition classes. Because he enjoyed the freedom there and he has got connection with bad gangs. But fortunately he never used any drugs during those period and to yet.

        Two years have gone. He was always in the cricket ground & never went to classes. At those period he wasn't caught for any of the cases. Because his "departure & arrival" time was in home as usual & punctual. So parents never realized the real change.

        At the last days of 9th standard these all were caught by his father. All days tuition class was after the school time. One day he met the tuition teacher. Teacher said, he wasn't coming for the classes for log time. His father got very much angry. Father was started searching for him in whole place. At last he reached the cricket ground, while the boy was playing. When he saw his father there, he was started shivering. He knew his father got the information. His father was never beat him before that moment. Father came with full anger & put his hand up to beat him. By God's grace his father's friend came between them & blocked his father. Then the 'Sathan' (the bad character) in the boy's mind withdrawn & he was started crying. His father brought him to their house & he advised him in sound.

         The boy thought the whole day about these things. At last he took a pledge that he would never say lie & do bad things. After that incident to till the time, that boy is keeping his word. Because now he hasn't a courage to do bag things. That boy is not a famous guy. A simple & ordinary person. His name is "Rakesh Sukumara Pillai". That is me!!



(forgive me for my bad English)

Struggle with Policemen

          As mentioned in the last blog, the best time for a mystery tale has not come yet.  So here I am writing my own experience of struggle with policemen in the capital city.
      
         During my college days, we had a trip. That was to the symbol of love(Taj Mahal, Agra), Rajput Mahals(at Jaipur) & Delhi.
        
          After a long journey from Jaipur, we reached Delhi one morning time of August month. Due the hot climate, we all decided to go for shopping in the evening. After a deep sleep my friend Sanju & me went outside of hotel in the evening for shopping.
        
          He came with me a belief that I could handle Hindivala( Hindi speaking people). But the truth is, he has mistaken. That means I have no idea about using Hindi. Because I studied it in my school time, not in real time. But I didn't reveal it to my friend, I walked with a great head-weight.
     
           We haven't any idea about the city. We reached near the over-bridge road outside of Railway station. There was a police aid post & lot of policemen standing around it.
         
           Then I thought, ask to one of them. I went near a police constable & asked, "hum log Tamil Nadu se aay hai. Hum shopping karna chahta hum. Saman bechne ka sthal kaham hai?"   Then he looked at me thoroughly. He asked, "thumhara pass kya hai bechne ke liye?".  I said, "hum saman bechna chahtha hai, vaham kaise jayega?" Then he got angry and said "kya hai thumhara pass? Kisne bhej diya yaham?"   I replied the same again. Then he shouted something ( I don't know what was it. Should be some bad word!!). At that time some police men surrounded us.
        
           A sub inspector came & asked about us. I said, " hum keral ka log hai. Tamil nadu mem pad raha hum. Vaham se aaya hai. Humko saman bechna chahtha hum".  Then I saw a simple smile on his face. He told the policemen to move back. He came near to me and put his hand on my shoulder. Then I have felt a fire in my abdomen. I didn't have any idea, what he would do. I afraid & my knees hit together.
         
           But nothing happened. He said in Malayalam, "ningalku thettu patti. Vanguka ennullathu kharidhna ennum, vilkuka ennullathu bechana ennum parayanam. ( You have mistaken. Use kharidhna for buy & use bechna for sell). Then I got understand, what was my mistake. I said sorry to him. He believed us & told the route to reach the Karol bagh( main shopping area in Delhi). We said thanks & left the place.
        
           While moving to metro railway station, we said nothing. After reached there, we started laugh very loudly. The mistake was simple. Used sell instead of buy!!



(forgive for my bad English)

SIgnature of my own

   

            Inspired by Sherlock Holmes's and Agatha Christie's, I too have planned to write some mystery tales. But I don’t think it’s the best time now. So I am planning to go through history (not a big matter, its my past). Unlike others, I started my primary level in a Malayalam medium school where I was logged onto upto SSLC.   

 
I would like to say with utmost humility that I have not a nursery certificate(I didn't complete that course)!. I was directly admitted to class 1, for that was the school where my father was working. During those days we used slate & pencil instead of notebooks in 1st and 2nd standards. There were textbooks to read though..    

 
Once in my 1st standard, our Malayalam teacher was teaching us words. Unfortunately, in the textbook the first word was "thara" (meaning is floor, but as a slang Malayalam the word represents a man of base qualities). The second letter was "pana" (palm tree). During the class all students were shouting. Teacher got angry and stopped teaching. She scolded all of us. Then she asked us all to write our names on our slates. Due to my laziness, I didn't hear her properly. I thought she had asked to write what she had taught us.      

  So I wrote "thara" on my slate instead of my name. She checked all the slates. When she looked into my slate, she started laughing loudly. Then she said, "I asked you to write your name and not your character." Then the whole class started laughing with her. After a moment I too laughed heartily at the joke.

(please forgive me for my bad English)